November 2009
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I don’t know why people are born and die. I’m sad now my great grand mom is gone, forever. Never again will I see her face, her sitting by the door, and make pieces of talk with her.
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This secret is killing me but I gotta swallow it, I gotta forget about it, I’m not my old me to make such a change, and I won’t do it, I won’t follow that voice, it’s not a right thing to do, and it won’t never work out.
Whenever I’m at the edge of losing myself, I always have the guts to give it away. I really wanna get rid of it. But the last minute before...
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I’m neither in need of venting off or letting ins out or nothing. Just wanna drop a word. It’s strange that whilst I’m exciting about the trip, it’s not gonna turn into a combustion, something really strong, making one jump crazy up high. This feeling, merely mellow, does feel like a bar of sugar into a cup of real bitter coffee, like a no-colour ice cube into a...
October 2009
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What makes me happy? What makes me happy? What makes me happy? What makes me happy? What makes me happy? What makes me happy? What makes me happy? What makes me happy?
I think I have problems dealing with people.
No excitement.
No ecstasy.
Life is so fucking flat. Especially when you’re sick.
“Everybody sucks.” (I wrote this down when I was in the middle of a class several...
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It’s raining outside. “The rain came down. The rain came down. The rain came down on me.”
I’m dizzy. My eyes swell hard. It’s worse than walking in the rain. It’s another kind of “wet”.
September 2009
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I’m not the kind of people that like changes. Anyway, I change, like mom and dad do. My parents love changes. If I’m not home for some days, I will see them already move stuff. We are all a version or even a copy of our parents. That’s what I mean. I’m influenced by my parents so I change quite regularly. This is our fifth house. My dad changes more than 15 scooters and 5...
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Yesterday was perfect. It marked an end of a painfully bad time. I gave an impressive presentation, as usual. :) My teacher saw what I could do and recognized my effort. Sometimes I wonder what I would be now if I were in that English class when I entered high school. Anyway, I can see the way things go for me. Zigzag. Madam Teresa once told me that everything happens for a reason. If I were meant...
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I was really upset couples of days ago. It was rainning madly. Everytime I hit the road, the rain discouraged me. I was in bad mood all the time. My puppy dog Toan died of a disease. We all thought that the vet killed him. That guy was like evil. All he wanted was money: He charged us like crazy. We needed somebody to blame Toan’s death on.
My mom misses Toan days and nights. I cried on the...
July 2009
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It’s been a few days we stay silent. No contacting between the two people who used to be soul mates to each other. I don’t know what to do now. I want to call him but something stops me. I know he got his friend to hang out now. That’s a good way to forget about “us”. I miss him a lot but I don’t want to be the first one to break this ice wall set up between us....
June 2009
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Yesterday morning, I scored a 10 in my final test of Speaking. It’s cool now that I got a 10.0 in total for this subject. The same as last semester. Tomorrow I’ll be doing the test on Reading and Writing.
I’m doing fabulous. My boy, he downloaded my favorite TV series for me although it weighs tons. He’s sweet and I love him.
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Though Saturdays are supposed to be fun, I got to work like a horse. I taught three classes, all kids. I can’t stand this teaching thing anymore. You talk, you explain, you keep talking and explaining your lungs off. Your throat hurts, you got dizzy and your impatience reaches its end. And guess what you got in return? The kids laugh and make jokes and look like monsters. And then at the end...
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06.11.2009
It’s bad when you wake up early in the morning and have nothing for breakfast. I was starving. Hungry does mean angry. I got pissed off by any trivial petty stuff. After a while, mommy was infected. It’s her turn to go mad. We fighted, of course. I ran out and I bought food. I drank some juice. I got back home. And things settled down. No more rough lake. Everyone seems...
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06.09.2009
I saw a weird cat this morning. He’s fucking tall and thin and his face is like a pingpong ball sticking with his funny body. For a moment, I was like “what the hell is that?” and my eyes popped out. He’s really mad when I hold him in my hands. This is the fiercest kitten I’ve seen in 21 years. It’s a relief because my aunt got one for her cat-addict...
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06.08.2009
4 am yesterday we woke up with an extreme discomfort because of the damn blackout. Without the fan, it’s so hot that even my anger melted.
Tin and me wished a rain but dreams about weather changing don’t come true.
This morning, same thing happened, another stupid blackout. Why does it always “rain” on my family? We never harm any living thing, even an ant. We...
“Don’t be surprised when I die this month.”
– Nhi
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06.06.2009
Waking up this morning, I felt an irrational depression. Perhaps it’s because of changing eating habit. I got eating habit and sleeping habit and even crying habit. I could cry easily for a silly reason. Yesterday morning, I came to my brother’s school and withdrew his school report. Getting out of the gate, looking at the big tree, I cried with the thought that never would...
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06.05.2009
I got the news this morning. They say I’m going to California, U.S in January 2010. I’ll be back on May 22 same year. I’m really excited!
I know it’s no big deal. But for me, it means a world. This is the first time I leave home and manage my own life. I know English, even some French and hopefully some Italian at the end of this summer. But I don’t trust...
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06.04.2009
I’m almost done with my final. What a relief! I bought a soccerball for my brother and a volleyball for me. I almost like the day.
But…
I argued with mommy today. I didn’t see my boyfriend today. I did something stupid in my test.
Forget it. Think about some other cool deals. My brother got sunburn and looks cute and handsome. He was playing soccer from 2 til 4...
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06.03.2009
This morning I woke up at 8. My classmate came at 9 and we reviewed our French lessons together til 11.20. When I went out buying lunch I ran into her and we see each other twice today. It’s funny because there’re people I haven’t seen in years.
I’ve been learning French since grade 10 but never really know it. My French is just like half a drop in the five...
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06.02.2009
I just got a 5 hour sleep but totally feel ready for the day. Today I have a general subject final. I wish it were the moment I walk out of the test room but … still hours away.
Every day, my puppy dog wakes up at 5.25 am waiting for me to take him out pee. Same thing happens this morning. The difference is he doesn’t have to wait long til 8 as usual. When I finish this...